I am in Dallas for the day following up on some job applications.  It has been about a month since this whole job hunt started. Today has been pretty hit and miss so far.  I did just randomly walk into this Starbucks and they did an on-the-spot interview. That’s good. I like Starbucks.  I love their coffee and their story.

This whole process has been pretty hard on me. I stepped out in faith knowing that I was supposed to step out. I know that I am right where I am supposed to be and doing what I am supposed to do. I know recording this CD is right, but what about next Monday when I come back home and have to have a job?

My theory has been to walk through as many doors as possible and let God shut and open them. I have done my due-dilligence and followed through.  I have had “sure” good paying jobs lined up that fall through last minute. A slammed door right in my face. I have felt God nudging me certain directions, but those doors are not opening either. “Do we have to wait until the last minute God?!”

I must admit.  I have been frustrated and upset at times. I mean, “c’mon, I give my whole life for You (Jesus).  I have planted so many time and financial seeds, and You cannot even open up a job when I need one?!”

What is crazy is that I have had two mentors, who have no idea what is going on, call me out of the blue and tell me to stay strong because God is about to open a door. Encouraging? Absolutely, but Monday is 7 days away. Maybe God waits until the last minute because He wants to remind us the role He plays in doing what He wants us to do. Well, that makes sense doesn’t it?! Sometimes God has already worked it out, He just waits to remind us how bad we need Him.  He breaks us and brings us back to a desperation for Him. Then poof! The door opens up. I’m broken. I’m desperate. We will see what the poof is. At least this Starbucks position can be my version of Paul’s tentmaking for now.