I hope you enjoyed the “Letters to a Young Poet” series last week. It was very refreshing yet challenging for me to read and digest. There are several letters that really hit home to me.

I have this reverberating question that keeps getting louder and louder:

What am I supposed to do?

In the letters, Rilke says to enjoy those struggles. Don’t worry about it, b/c you probably aren’t ready to do it anyways. That has been challenging for me. I have been taught that it is about staying focused on a vision, but I tend to violate Rilke’s advice of enjoying the experiences and struggles by looking for the answer so intently. At what point are you just wandering and at what point are you missing the experience of the process?

This struggle brings up another question: Who am I?

I enjoy many things. I am an artist, but I love business and strategy. I want a tattoo, but I will not be respected in the business world. I love Oklahoma, I love Dallas, and I still want to try the Big Apple. Like I said, I have been taught that it is about staying focused on a vision, but what if you are not sure what to focus on? Should I focus on finishing my degree? Should I focus on music and other ministry? Should I focus on building our business? They all are very real to me. They are all things that I feel God wants to accomplish in my life. Oh yeah, don’t forget to throw in making enough money to take care of my family.

So what am I doing now? I’m walking through the doors to see what opens and what closes. I keep seeking God and just try to enjoy the experiences of doors opening and closing.

Anyone else experience this? Please share thoughts and advice for me and the readers. I have a feeling I am not the only one that asks these questions.